3rd Ramadhan

 Diary of Ramadhan ...       

        I got such a really glorious blessed on this Ramadhan. Thank you Allah for the great friends, family, food and everything you give me. I'm just realised how lucky I was born. Things went very well since i'm 20 years old girl now. There was lot of thing that had been changes and there was something that keep on static with no changes that can be done. You know what is it? It was a feeling that keep stronger and stronger from a days to day. Even there was lot of things happened, it still the same. The hating that I want to hold since the decisions made to let it go turn into care and love that now was being stronger.

         Deep inside my heart, I realised it won't be happened like i want. But I believe in patient that will become worthy for my waiting. I scared if one days, when things goes like my desired then my heart can't accept it until I say "What the fuss is all about ?". "Is this what I want ?"

         As I will move into maturity stage now, I start to realise that there was a tonned of things in my dream list that I should made it happened rather than slave my feeling for something doubtful. But, that was human attitude that want something so badly eventhough she/he realised it won't be happened for the god sake.