Saturday, August 11, 2012

finally we at the end of road

Times move so fast and it never wait for us even for a sec. I still remember my first time registered at Uni with all the kinder helper, tension, woke up so early on the morning and we are force to do somethingwe dislike until we thought it was a tortured. But actually that make us to become today. All the sacrifice and pain and sadness fade away when we now sit together around table with friends and story to each other about the past. Laughing loudly and it just so sweet to be remember. Even sometimes, the bad memory about things that could make we angry and tense turn good when it being remember now. Oh Uni, thats mean lot and lot. Everything start to become new Azie when i first step on Uni life..i did things i never thought thats it  me who did that. I found friends sharing good and bad time. I learn about life is not only about fun and thought and sad its about the mixture and blend of experience we collect from each things we done. Yeah, I laugh a lot and people might thought i never been serious in anything I did. But, you dont know me inside. At uni, i learn we cant simply judge people on how they act spontaneously and we cant simply look down on other people.They might have superb double hero ability but they just not show it yet. With the knowledge we get at each step we make since the last 2 years, it change us to be Today.. we may think we just the same like before but we didnt actually =P
When time just around of corner, whereas we will make our own direction, that is the hardest part in friendship. It wont be long longer we will stick to each other but the memory we drawon the past is hard to erase even with any magical we used. The joy that we make and sad we through together and tension that we have during group working its just the past and one days we will miss all that moment and hoping we have back to the future machine..lols.. thats obviously too much of dreamer..

Hurt beb. trust me

Reality hurts.

In real life what important most is what you want. Ironically something always get in the way. It's sad bila kena deal with something yang you betul-betul nak and hold it sampai mati dan dah ada pun depan mata but you just couldn't get every entire part of it. I know it sounds crap but the thing, the situation is already crap. I quit from trying hard to be smart, intelligent perhaps just to put everything in words to make you get the point. The point matters much you see. I know, this is still crap.

The thing is, thinking of something yang dah ada pun in life yang dah pun exist dan hakikat sebenarnya when you come back to reality bukak mata seluas mungkin, you sebenarnya tak dapat pun. thinking makes you go crazy. I try so hard to not to think about anything yang boleh buat I rasa paranoid. But its damn hard, you know why? because it's in my bloody mind. And I'm in the bloody situation, how can i not think of it? like now, writing with all my emotions which I know you prolly wouldn't understand. ever.


Dan semuanya because one thing. Choices. Everyone have the opportunity to make choice. Don't ever let go of something yang sudah ada pun dalam hidup, which you nak sangat benda tu tapi you tak dapat capai.. lagi. but in the end perhaps kalau kau believe sikit je lagi you'll get your hands on it.

The nearest example yang I could give is bila Isteri yang rindu suami balik kerja. Hari-hari tunggu si suami call, bila dengar phone berdering hati selalu berkata-kata "why can't it be you? why can't it ever be you?" sebab screen keluar nama orang lain dan bukan si suami tadi. I know bad example but just nak bagi you people picture something. (give me your best shot, kalau ths is lameee)

Oh well, think it this way. You choose your decision kan? So berenang-renang ikut the flow. You'll prolly wouldn't regret. seriously. Sebab kalau give up. Tak mencabar langsung lah der.
Try to think any happy thoughts. It'll make you feel better. no matter how lonely you are, you'll be fine. :)


 If you love someone. Go for a guy who never lie to you . Go for a guy who never complaint about you. Go for a guy who never fail to make you laugh. Go for a guy who never dare to hurt your heart. Go for a guy who never say any bad thing to you. Go for a guy who love you inside and outside. Go for a guy who taking care of you. Go for a guy who love you more than you do. Go for a guy who will able to make you smile. Go for a guy who will guide you to right path. Go for a guy who never say a thing about you. Go for a guy who will never let you go no matter how hard the thing is. Go for a guy who trust you more than others. Go for a guy who will never let you waste your tears because of small argument. Go for a guy who can serve you anything. Go for a guy who can spend on you. Go for a guy who will never have another girl when he with you. If you go for this guy you will never forget to thanks to Allah for grant you a good guy who dare to sacrifice anything for you. :)


I tell people they`re great because they are. I tell people i trust them because i do. I tell people `i love you` because i appreciate them. I like to tell people the things that they deserve to hear !!!

Thursday, August 9, 2012


Ya Allah
tension lah . tension sangat nak menangis rasa . menangis lama lama, why I must feel this way. ignore je lah .ignoreeeee please. I need strength , i need my laugh back i missed that lot. I miss myself at place where there is nothing to worry and even I seems act not care but i still manage to handle and solve everything succesfully. Allah please send me somebody to help me. I have to finish what i'm doing even i have to crawl alone and dying inside.

will keep telling myself , be strong !

Tuesday, August 7, 2012

lost ???

i realise now my situation is unstable when i lost direction to make decision between what i want and what is the necessary in life and real dramatic life

laugh out loud