ayahanda

Many people would come and goes in our lives. Whether its for temporarily or ever lasting. But, each missing will left a huge feeling which is upset. And my missing now was just temporarily to leave my family for studying. It's was absolutely difficult and a feeling that cannot be described by word. Because its subjective.

Without am realised time left me far away. My semester breaks already over and i got to woke up from sleep again now to face the real world. Dreadful world that taught me lot of things neither bad nor good. Its depend on how I handle it and create it to be. Thefe are so many trial in life that we can't just let it go. But, we should face it with calmness ( my dad quote ). I have a awful feeling this upcoming semester. My dad was sick and had been stay at hospital for a fews day. Plus, he not completely recovered yet. I was so scare, he never fall sick before but, suddenly things become like thhis. It's was a really huge trials for me. I always prayed to Allah SWT for my family healty especially my dad. He's the only ones we had after my mum passed away. I don't anything bad happened to him. He mean a lot to us.

My dad was a kind of people who was so hard head..hahaha (keras kepala). He always pretending everything was fine and good. But actully it wasn't. trying to be pretend he's alright and healthy but the fact he was sick. Each time, I persuade him to get medical check up but he would gave a thousand of excuse to avoid it, until one night he had a dreadful pain on his kidney that finally lead him to stayed at hospital. Only Allah know, how I and my other little sista and little brother feel.For the god sake, i don't want it to happened again.

My dad was 51 years old now, and from what the doctor said. At this age, my dad should take notice on what he eat and need to take a serious healthy precautions. well, as his daughter I know my dad habit. He was a person that really careful and watch what he eat. He not smoker and living a good lifestyle. But, as we know "illness won't come with notice". A kind of magical like suprised " YOU HAVE DISEASED " haha.
As his daughter i was so proud of him. everyone thought that my father was 45 years old and they don't believe when my dad told them that he was 51 years old. Plus, my father already have 2 grandchildren and will have another 1 when my sister's Long give birth this October. Seriously, my dad look younger than his real age. As my dad told me, maybe the disease that just come recently just another trial by Allah to test him and our family. Insyaallah.

I wish my dad will completely recovered soon ~